Jeremy Now

Jeremy was a happy go lucky guy when I met him who unsuccessfully hid years of physical and mental abuse with a Devil may care attitude.    He did everything he could think of to prove he was a real Man while desperately trying to hide that he has Epilepsy.  I doubt he had ever experienced unconditional love except from a grandmother,  his Nana, who he had too little time with. He not only didn't believe in God, he knew Nothing of God other than to frequently state that God hated him. He proclaimed that "Satan Rules" with no concept of that statement either. How could he??
I tried to protect him from being around what I know my family can be but then wrongly acted like he was getting what he asked for when he insisted on returning to Omaha with me. I Knew what my daughters could be like. He really didn't except he knew about how they had treated Me.  And that was partly why he insisted on coming with me. He thought he could still protect me from their hatred.
What he couldn't have seen was that I would protect them from him or anyone who attacked them in any way. 
I was Very Very wrong to so seldom protect him from them!!!
It started with Jami and Mikey.  I was hospitalized shortly after returning and left him with Jami and Mikey. I had no clue how mean they would be to him until he showed up at the hospital where I was. One of the few times I saw him cry. He said that they ti old him that he had no business in Nebraska because he "wasn't even family". 
He stayed with me at Imnanuel the rest of the time I was there, about 2 weeks. Jami and Mikey never visited once. I shared my meals with Jeremy and he slept wherever he could at the hospital.  The day they told me I was in liver failure and no one could figure out why I was told to get my affairs in order and call my family.  None of my daughters showed up. Jeanette and Jess had made brief visits before that but no one came when told I was dying. Finally after 3blood transfusions a doctor figured out I was in liver failure because of a rare reaction to being allergic to cephalosporin and the problem was corrected. When they released me none of my daughters would come to pick us up. They let us stay at a hospital shelter one night to figure things out. When I called Mom she was very impressed with how Jeremy had stood by me and arranged bus tickets but they were for 2 days out and we only had one night where we were. I called Jess and begged and she reluctantly agreed that we could go to her house but when we got there no one was home .  It was 8 degrees and I was just in a hospital gown, Jami abs Mikey wouldn't even bring my clothes and shoes. Jeremy had on a thin jacket he tried to cover us both with. We called Mikey,  he said that Jami and Jess took off and he couldn't contact them. I wasater told they were look laughing at what they had done to us. I called Jeanettevwho did come and took us to an IHOP to warm up and try to figure something out. Mom was livid. She called Michael and demanded he Do Something. I think he used Uncle Paul's rank in the Air Force to threaten Mikey who eventually came and took us to a hotel. The next day he did show up with our stuff minus anything of value.

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